Tuesday, April 14, 2009

God is my friend

So first off I just want to apologize to blogger world. Yesterday I was "negative" in more ways then one, and I want to thank everyone for the nice comments of reassurance. So I spent allot of last night and this morning remembering that God is a friend of mine. I spent a great deal of time praying and meditating and I'm in a better place spiritually. I have a peace about me now. Yes it sucks that the FET didn't work but at the same time maybe God has bigger plans for us. If and when H and G want to try again, my womb is here for them. I will go to the ends of it all to help them bring home their dream. I was mostly upset yesterday because I really wanted this for them, and I still do. All of the support and heartfelt thoughts sent my way were soooo appreciated. I am here and I'm not going anywhere. H and G please know that my womb is yours whenever you want or need it.


  1. So glad you found a peaceful place!

  2. thanks R-your willingness is unfaltering and
    god is our friend...We are sending you peace and lovexoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxH & G.
    ps, we must have been writing at the exact same time??? sychronicity yet again... ;)

  3. Failed transfers is something nobody can prepare you for, and as surrogates we take on so much of the blame.. Just take time to work through it...

    As a surrogate I have been through 8 IVF cycles with IPs 1 canceled 5 checmicals 1 successful ending with a baby boy and my last a missed abortion at 10 weeks...

    But somehow we find the courage and resolve to keep going.. It will happen for you.. just keep your eye on your dream.

  4. I'm glad you're feeling better. Hugs.

  5. I'm so glad your feeling better too! It's hard to move past it, especially when we've never had any exposure to failures. For many of us surrogates we just "got pregnant" and so when we enter the IF world we have every confidence that it's going to work because it may never have failed in the past. Then when it doesn't, it's very humbling. It goes to show IVF pregnancies are nothing like natural pregnancies and you just never know how your going to react.

    I too have been through 2 failed transfers and a chemical pregnancy, I too was very humbled by the experience.