Sane, Sane, Sane, Sane, Sane!

Ok so...the powers that be say I'm Sane (woot, woot) Of course after reading this post you may not agree but thats alright. So the Dr's visit went well. You say Dr's appointment I say most action I've had in a while lol. So I talked with the psycologist (briefly) Then went upstairs for : Ultrasound, vaginal ultrasound, one on one with Dr, Full Physical, Breast check, pap, cultures, another one on one with Dr, a "team" meet with Dr, followed with bloods. Was a very intensive and full procedure (wow what you gals and guys go through). So we start, was up this morning at 5:00am taking my first prenatal pill.

On another note. I've been taking the time to read alot of other peoples stories and its come to my attention something I inadvertently did. I've notice that a few of you have issues over fertiles using the word "blessed", which I myself have used in the past. Please let me say that I apologize from the bottom of my heart. I as a loose lipped fertile never realized or thought about what my using that word may mean or do to others. I have never felt or believed that I was more "blessed" or better than or above anyone else in my life time. I have been extremely lucky in the child department and I want all of you IF and IVF's to know that I am sorry if at anytime I personally made you feel as though I thought I was more deserving or better then you Because I don't and I'm sorry. I don't think that "God" has stuck his finger out of Heaven and said you, you, and you, can have children and you, you, and you can't. I think its unfortunate and sad when wanting to be/deserving to be parents are unable to have babies because everyone of you deserve it as much as I. On another note may I tell you that my beautiful Mom who I love to pieces was and has always been infertile. My sister and I were lucky enough to have that wonderful women adopt us when we were young toddlers. I am now just realizing the amount of heartache involved in anyones fertility struggle and I'd like you all to know that your in my prayers and my heart and I'm hoping you all end up with the BFP whether it be with you, your surrogate or through adoption.